so this morning.

i decided that ive given up on this already..i remember the reason why i sleep early is so i dont have to think about what a failure i am. oh and to you..i would ask what i did wrong but i feel like i wouldnt really get an answer.

havent been on in FOREVERRRR

well..nothing much i want to talk about. just been feeling a lot of ups and downs the past few days. i think i might have an idea why its been like that too. but the good news is that im trying to get through it! and that i was able to take my mind off it for awhile tonight with some sisters. im glad i got to visit them and have them talk =]. oh and Praise God that my grandma is recovering from he surgery from last Thursday! i was finally able to visit her today 5 days after her surgery haha. well thats it for now. i need my ‘Strength’ ring back..good night.

ironic.

trying to get some rest before tomorrow, but it isn’t working. and I’m really sorry that it isn’t working right now..hoping i fall asleep soon. good night.

Fasting List Day 1!

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Rejoice Always. Pray without ceasing. In all circumstances give thanks, for this is the will of God for you in Christ Jesus.

-This should be done all the time anyway, but trying to stay in a prayerful mindset all the time! Praying in the morning, praying at noon, and praying at night! CONFERENCE IS IN A FEW DAYS!!! Follow along with our fasting list if you want to :D and remember that its all cumulative! Good Night Everyone! God Bless! =]]

juggaboo-niecel-deactivated2010 asked: my room smells like thailand!!

if Thailand smelled like new paint!

i think tomorrow is the day i go to my planned thinking spot for the first time. probably stay there for awhile tomorrow i guess..

random??

so i get this call from Sarah at 2:35am…and now Sarah, Patricia, and i are on the phonee.. :D

 The Red Bull i drank didn’t work!! ahhh!

My Thursday

so today…err yesterday i guess…hahah i had debut practice in the morning. it was supposed to start at 930 but of course it started later…because my sister and i are the teachers and we were late…HAHAHA but its not our fault we have to drive to Chula Vista 2-3 times a week for the practices! anyway, practices are always outside so i got darker and possibly sun burned on my back..and to think, i wanted to tan at the beach…haha. after that, came back home to fall asleep with a big headache. then i woke up to go to the gym with Aaron. i was feeling really tired and gross from all the sweat on me hahah so we showered, got some In-N-Out and had a movie night at Aaron’s house with a bunch of friends. i had to leave in the middle though, but i went back to finish the movie with Aaron, Cy, and Sophie. stayed there till 1-ish and left. after i dropped Sophie off, i didn’t have anywhere to go because everyone was sleeping so no one would open the door to my house. i was thinking about sleeping in my car (Cy thought i was kidding..HAHA) but my sister eventually let me in lol. well, i have to wake up in a couple hours for Spanish from 8-11ish. then i need to run some errands. so Good Night.

REBOUND…

whoaitsaaron:

Rebound that basketball.. re-rebound!

Oh how i love basketball and other sports!

LET’S PLAY HOOOOORRRSEEEE

trying to make a new cd, but

i need new music..

dear diary. a letter to myself.

You don’t know what you want anymore. You don’t know how to feel.. You don’t know what to think, how to sort it all out. You don’t even know yourself anymore; you’re not acting the way you usually do..you’re making SO many mistakes. You’re putting off what needs to be done. How can you be so passive in making decisions on how to react to EVERYTHING? You’re angrier at more things than one. You’re upset over the smallest things. You’re scared. Maybe you should try to understand..? I don’t know. Whatever it is that is making you like this on the inside, I’m sorry.

Confused? Me too.

ello!

got back from a week in Hawaii on Friday morning! Hawaii was AMAZING! when we first got there at like 11 at night, we picked up our rent-a-car Jeep Liberty. it was the latest one and it was brand new! it still had the new car smell, well until we turned it back in..it smelled like hot beach mats when we returned it LOL. then we checked into the hotel and went straight to WalMart to buy some stuff! it was walking distance from our hotel! throughout the week there, i bought so much food…i actually ate three meals a day with snacks in between unlike my usual two meals a day when im not on vacation hahah. it was so hard not to buy food because it was all TOO DELICIOUSSSSS. we went around the whole island (surprisingly, it only takes 40 minutes to get from one end of the island to the other side! pretty small island!) we went to a new beach almost everyday and walked the strip in Waikiki a few times. its really nice out there at night. we went to Pearl Harbor, para sailing, i took a nap on the beach while my sister and Sonny got stung by a jellyfish (after they were stung, they found the jellyfish and poked it till it popped…), and we went to a swap meet twice! double up on gifts! we walked to a lot of places too (i cant remember the names because they’re too hard to pronounce =P) i think the highlight of the whole week though was the luau we went to on Paradise Cove. there were a lot of activities, like spear throwing and getting temporary tattoos! i got a tribal Polynesian one on my arm and i wanted to make it permanent! the food at the luau was really good too! i think i put on some weight after everything haha. but then Thursday came so we had to pack up and get back to the airport..i came back with an extra duffel bag because i bought so much chocolate and gifts haha. when we got back early Friday morning, my mom picked up my sister, Sonny and me at the airport. then my sisters, Sonny, my mom, my grandma, and Yuki drove up to Oxnard for Aika’s graduation! (uhm..thats 6 hours on a plane and then another 6 hours driving back and forth to Oxnard ha..) but its okay! we had a good time, ate at a buffet but laughed off all the food we ate. oh mannn picture frames, aunties and uncles in the back seat, mega phones, and food. hahahah. we got back Saturday at midnight. later that day, i went to bring Mikayla to her soccer evaluations at Sunset park and then we drove to Mira Mesa to meet up with my mom’s and grandma’s friends from the Philippines. by the way, it was my first time driving in a week because everyone but me drove the Liberty haha. we ate at On the Border! it was my first time eating there and it was yummyyy. then we went to Coronado base and after that i used the rest of the day for me time =]. Sunday, i had work in the morning and then i went to say hi to the people at Aaron’s house who got back from Pre-Con. I MISSED EVERYONEEE. so a few of us went to eat at Sombreros cause Missy was hungry…that beast. haha we “shared” a burrito and some carne asada fries when really she ate it all…HAHA JAYKAY..sort of ;]. then everyone had to go home so i dropped by Denise’s to say hi and gave her a little gift from Hawaii and then played tennis with Michelle for like 30 minutes hahaha. now its Monday and im cleaning up my room a bit and waiting to eat with Missy again! and then work laterrrrr. all in all, i had a pretty good vacation =] Hawaii = beautiful sights, amazing weather, delicious food!